I came across a video of Oprah from her new “Lifeclass” video series awhile back and suddenly felt like writing about it after browsing through some notes on my phone.. You can find the show on the Internet or on tv but I’m not sure which channel. She basically talks about life lessons by using examples from her own experiences/interviews.
I always thought Oprah was a good role model because she had to overcome all sorts of challenges to get to where she is now. I watched Ingy’s box set of her show and behind the scenes stuff so I kind of knew the basics of her history/philosophy. I don’t consider her the perfect human being nor do I wake up thinking oh my gosh i wanna be just like Oprah but while watching one of her Lifeclass episodes, I wrote down the following three phrases which I believe changed my entire life almost instantaneously- not necessarily for better or for worse, I just noticed I started to think differently..
So here they are:
1. You are not the thoughts in your head.
2. Living through ego is living through fear.
3. Move through a space of peace.
At the time I watched the show, I was pretty uneasy. I was in over my head trying to find the motivation to churn out my thesis and I was generally feeling pretty down about a variety of my own chains of decisions that had led me to where I was at that point- professionally, financially, physically, emotionally- allll that jazz. I questioned if I had made the right choices and spent quite a bit of time trying to dissect where I went wrong in order to have found myself that unhappy.
What I’ve realized is that I have made quite a few mistakes and somewhere along the way, I started to make decisions based on what kind of person I wanted to be (conclusions based on fear of failure/inadequacies), without ever considering who I was in that moment.
In moving forward, I do want to “move through a space of peace” and part of that is going to be from committing to decisions about what I’m going to be about/stand for. I have to really evaluate what my deficiencies are (like seriously admit to them) and work to develop a more positive and honest perspective on myself, before I can start to live the life the-happy-emma thinks she deserves.